My nine-year-old son is the center of my universe. This is the story of his childhood as it unfolds. Please read the first post, "Why I started this blog," to know more.

Sunday, January 4, 2009

Am falling apart...

I honestly don't know what's happening to me. I take one look at my son and I feel like dissolving into tears. I'm terrified about the on Wednesday - as I've said over and over, the anesthesia is terrifying. I've myself dealt with it without trouble twice and this is going to the Shreyaan's third time, but somehow, this time I'm coming apart at the seams.

A little while back, he was giving me some lip and I had to get stern with him - and I was actually glad, because it meant a few moments of not feeling like my insides were melting. Somebody once told me I handle stress very well. If only they saw me now.

2 comments:

LizC said...

I know I would feel the same way. Its just how we Mothers are created. He will be OK. He's been through the anesthesia so you know that he's done well with it. But...I know. You cant help but worry.

Not sure what your spiritual beliefs are, but I am going to pray for you right now...

Lord- Be with my online friend as she goes through this. Cover her with Your peace and give her Your strength to endure this. When she worries, remind her gently that You are with her. Your Word says that You will never leave us nor forsake us. So make your presence and your strength known in her heart these next few days, and even always. Be with her precious son. Guide the hands of the doctors that all will go well, and that those blood vessels would be sealed permanently that there would be no more leakage. I thank You that You are a big God who hears our prayers. In Jesus name, I pray this.

Tammy said...

Sending prayers your way. :)

Tammy